Suffering

This entry is much more like a devotional than anything else- including some lyrics I wrote today. My heart feels that I should post it in this way....
(I am aware that not all of you believe in God- but I hope that you will read this with an open heart and mind. If not, just for a fun read!:))

Suffering

A pixie wanders the forest haven all alone at dark
The flowers look faded and lonely
Gray in color
Tainted in the moonlight
The forest is spooky
Trees seem unfriendly
The sky is black and starless

All alone in fear
The fear of death and dying
Pixie shudders in her spirit
Dying with every step
She suffers fear and loss
Tears seem to move in
Pixie cannot fly
To a place filled with happiness

Unable to move from the dark forest
Pixie stares at the starless sky
Wondering why fear has swallowed her whole
She seems to shake inside herself
Fear and death consume her mind

Pixie wanders around, looking for God.
She asks, “Where are you?”
“Why are you taking the young away?”
Pixie asks before the tears take over again

The sunlight shows through the darkened trees
The flowers appear with color
The forest no longer looks spooky
Trees appear friendly
The sky is light blue
But this is a façade
Pixie flies with hurt and pain
The fear never seems to fade
Through all this time.


Many times we all put masks on our faces to cover hurt, pain, and fear. The "forest" around us is dark and lonely. Life just does not seem inviting, but instead of facing everything; we shut it out and pretend it is not there, while crying in the night. We don't stretch out our wings to the heaven and reach for God to pull us up. We forget that God is there for us.

Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of your wings. (Psalm 61:1-4)

We forget that God is calling us into His arms, we forget that we do not have to bear the weight by ourselves and hide it like "Pixie" and the "forest" does in my poem.

You are my strong tower
Shelter over me, beautiful and mighty, everlasting king
You are my strong tower
Fortress when I’m weak
Your name is true and holy
And your face all I see
Your face is all I see
-Strong Tower (Kutless) Strong Tower Lyrics
I thought that these words were beautiful and encouraging. I thought of them when I chose the Bible verse. God is there, shelters us from the cold, dark forest. There is no need to run from His Tower, and hide the fact that sometimes we just need his comforting arms.

.......sometimes, i should take my own advice- perhaps thats why I felt the need to write this.