Most of the time, I've written songs about God and getting through things in life.
Recently, I have been thinking about camp. Heart Camp, it is a camp for kids with heart disease.
I wrote this song, Angels for a friend who passed on from a heart problem.
This is for Amanda....
Angels
You’re too tired to hold on any longer
You feel too weak from fighting your whole life
Ready to give in
To give up
It must be your time
To live among the angels
The porcelain angels by your bedside
They give you the peace as you lay there
Their beauty endures
While with love, you hold on
For someone special
A little longer you make life last
Afraid to leave loved ones behind
You’re aware of the pain they endure
To hold on with only alittle
You make a last wish
In hopes to see one last thing
Before you live among the angels
Things happen so fast
The very thing that beats inside you
Gives you the pain you’ve suffered
All of your life
It’s what makes you fight
But you want to give in
To live among the angels
Death is a difficult thing to deal with, especially when you return to camp, only to never see friends return. Nothing seems to make sense, why would God take a 21 year old girl away? Why would He let her suffer through a heart problem? Why was I born with one? It doesn't matter... what matters is my scar is a sign that I survived completely fine and my friends did not.
Some of them were not even my friends, either way, we were connected by the fact we all were at camp for the same reason. We have heart issues.
I used to deny my heart problem to feel better. Hey, i always assumed it didn't exist anymore anyways. Reality set in one day at a camp meeting. God really took away kids... young, only 17...
I could never understand it- but like a video; that day haunts me.
I feel better when i remember that Amanda is with God.... the Angels took her.
4 comments:
I never realized you had a heart condition. Do you ever suffer many health related problems because of it? What daily challenges are you faced with? Just the fact that you are in college and don't seem to let it dominate your life says alot.
I love your site name!
(Elsie)
Danielle...
I have a congenital heart defect, but it was fixed when i was 3 weeks old. When I was 11, i started to attend Heart Camp. The only challenges I face is trying to hide everything. So, yes.... it does dominate my life more than you think.
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